the importance of ...
BELIEVING A child, in his innocence believes in everything they are told. People tell them the moon is made of cheese.. and they will believe so. It's only through the years that they begin to understand the world and what it involves been part of it. They come to realize that santa claus doesn't exist, that the moon is not made of cheese and that there is no treasure at the end of the rainbow... but what happens to those that since the beginning of time believe in every person? Now that they are faced with the truth, is a a valid statement to say that the individuals they meet are bad? What happens to those naive kids that believe that there is some good in everyone's heart? What happens when someone they had their hopes on just disappointed them. I want to believe there is some good in everybody. That everyone has a good side to them. A loving and cozy heart they can share. But what happens when you are confronted with the opposite. No matter what people in my surroundings might say: I still believe in the good in people. I know that every individual out there, has a heart, some have it hidden but its just a matter of time for their good side to come out.
CARING what happens when everything just builds up within you, your life is just up side down. You feel trapped in your own life with no where to go.When you have this knot in your throat, where if you say something you will just breakdown completely.. when you really need someone , someone that can just listen to you. Someone that doesn't even have to say anything, they just have to be there listening to you, through a phone or in person. No matter how strong we can be, or pretend to be, there is a point when we will need of someone. When we feel lonely, or when we just need to cry and scream. We don't need to know the entire world, we just need of that one friend that we know will be there for us no matter what. Someone that will be on the other side of the phone listening to you cry. They don't have to do absolutely anything, they don't have to attempt to make you feel better, their presence does it all, just knowing that they are listening to you has already made things a lot better. A friend will keep up with your life, will still be your friend even after not talking for some time, but if its really a friend, you will never loose track or loose contact with them. we are always in need of someone that you can just text at random times just to tell them WAS UP... or... dude my stomach is hurting.... i feel so sad today... you are so fat..i miss him..dude guess who just texted me... and they will always reply, not instantaneously but they will hit you up... someone that you can call and talk to them about the randomest things..about how you ate too much..how you miss your family..how you cant find any Mexican food... how that crush of yours just texted you... its that one person you laugh with all the time... argue with... can call them w.e... (!@#$%) and they wont take it up... someone you can just be yourself and they will still love you.. its those kind of friendships.. the real ones... that keep you up.. that keep you going.. that keep you running... they are such an important part of your life... and for that, don't ever forget to tell them at least once a year: foo you are an awesome friend, don't u ever leave me, you got that down...
LOVING four letters, simply four letters make up the most beautiful feeling an individual can ever experience. It's such a small word yet it can be so contradicting. It is the most wonderful feeling when its mutual, but it can be devastating when its only found on one side of the spectrum. We watch TV and we dream of love. Love... when we are young we imagine what it would be like to find it. To be able to say we are in _ _ _ _. Yet its not always like its shaped in the movies. We so eagerly try to find it , but sometimes, just sometimes, when we find it, its nothing like the world had told us it would be. It comes from the person you least expected. The neighbor you talk to , the friend you argue with, or just the person you just met. _ _ _ _ is not planned, its not biased, BUT it is blind, it is unconditional, it is wonderful. Once you find it, because you feel it deep within your heart, alot of people might say you are set. But it is not that simple. At times the person you fell in _ _ _ _ is not the right one, it's not the right moment , it's just not. If the _ _ _ _ you feel is given back from that one person, then it is wonderful, but if its not... its horrible. You ask yourself so many questions, why? was I too late? was I too little? was it not meant? just why? you feel it from your part, but the other one is indifferent. But... was the other one always indifferent? was there a time when there was no indifference and you were corresponded. Because deep within youself, you thought that was the case at some point. But then... maybe it was just you dreaming of too much, dreaming of what you wanted. Maybe it was never there from their part. But just the fact that they made you feel _ _ _ _. Just the fact that they gave you the privilage of feeling such a wonderful feeling for the first time in your life, is the most valueable thing. The other one might not _ _ _ _ you back, yes,that is a valid option, but why would you fall in love with that other one in the first place? they gave you no reasons? they never told you they _ _ _ _ d you. So why would you? Simply because we did. Because something in their actions, in their words, in their eyes made you feel special, made you feel important, made you feel something. At times, that person, according to other people is just a " player," but so what? if it was up to you, you would have never choosen to _ _ _ _ a player, but _ _ _ _ is not a choice, it has no options, it just happens. And yes, that player might have not done a single thing, other than walk you from mc donalds to the bus stop and talk to you, as simple as that, that other person didn't do anything else but that. So why would you? why would your heart choose that other one? Because that one person made you feel. made you feel something different. That other person finally made you feel those famous but unknown butterflies in your stomach. But, all that was never done purposely, and for that reason, sometimes your wonderful feeling is just meant to remain within you and your heart and your mind. Because thats all there is to it. The other person is not interested. And to that we can't do much. _ _ _ _ can't be forced, if it doesn't grow on its own, there is not much we can do. Just like you didn't decide to fall for that other person, the _ _ _ _ from them to you can't be planned. Your love for them will only remain YOUR love for THEM. not vise versa. And although it hurts a lot in the beginning, in your first attempt to assimilate the facts, with time, all that remains is just the good memories, the nice walks to the bus stop, the lovely "fake" hugs, and the good moments. You come to realize that you want the best for that person, and maybe the best for them is not with you, and all you want is the best for that other one. Love is not selfish. You feel happy because you know they are happy. And with time you learn that you are happy the way you are. That , yes , that other person was very important in your life and they still are, but just as friends. You grow up, and meet new faces. You thank that other person for giving you the privilage to feel what _ _ _ _ feels like for the first time in your life, but life is made of periods, and this period came to an end, a happy and pleasing one, but now, you'ved moved on, and already experienced, there is alot waiting for you out there.
